Sometimes I feel like the universe has it out for me. Its sick sense of humor has landed me in a swine flu quarantine in South Korea, cost me thousands of dollars in at least a dozen driving-related mishaps and forced me into a twice-weekly upper-lip shaving pattern. I keep feeling like it's all karmic payback for the days when my short-girl-complex caused me to taunt the quieter, meeker girls at Braden River Middle School.Thursday, June 25, 2009
Like A Cat
Sometimes I feel like the universe has it out for me. Its sick sense of humor has landed me in a swine flu quarantine in South Korea, cost me thousands of dollars in at least a dozen driving-related mishaps and forced me into a twice-weekly upper-lip shaving pattern. I keep feeling like it's all karmic payback for the days when my short-girl-complex caused me to taunt the quieter, meeker girls at Braden River Middle School.Saturday, June 20, 2009
Finding My Fortune
Lakshmi, Hindu Goddess of Fortune(I thought I had posted this blog. It was written about a week ago.)
The blog went dormant for a bit, as I sank into a deep hole of self-doubt, uncertainty and anxiety. Yes, the real pressure of being unemployed began to sink in. How much longer would my money last? When does the goodwill of friends run out? Will my resume stand out amongst the hundreds of qualified applicants vying for jobs?
The answer to each remains uncertain. But some time between last Wednesday (when Coleen came home for lunch at noon to find me still sleeping on her couch with a Doritos bag on my chest and crumbs trailing down the same dress I was wearing the day before) and now, I have found relative peace with the situation. A few things happened: 1. I tried new yoga studios; 2. I embraced my fortune in life; 3. I pumped out a mad number of resumes.
1. Yoga: the physical practice of yoga is all well and good (it gives me rockstar shoulder muscles), but it's (and I hesitate to put this in writing) the body, mind and soul connection that makes the practice so life-changing. Truly, life-changing. I found some studios that offered reduced rate classes at special times for those of us on a budget, and now I'm back on my game. My body feels rejuvented and so does my spirit. After three straight days of classes, I suddenly realized that I'm peaceful. I can't nor need to explain why (but here are links to the studios: http://www.thebhaktishop.com/ and http://www.yogashalapdx.com/)
2. Fortune: I've said to a couple of people that I'm richest poor person out there. I'm living in a nice, modern townhome, eating amazing food and drinking good wine. Friends are buying me lunch, making me dinner, and even hooking me up with gas money. Just when I want to crawl into the abyss of self-pity over the string of misfortunes that have peppered the last three years, I have to do a real reality check. No, I didn't think I'd be divorced, jobless and mooching off of friends at the age of 30. But I also didn't realize how much unconditional love I would have in my life either. It is just coming from places I didn't expect.
3. Resumes: Coleen didn't have WiFi in her house when I moved in, so I was retreating to coffee shops for hours on end. Full of lattes and freshly baked muffins, I hawkishly searched for jobs, trying to make my resume among the first to be sent. You see, Oregon has the second highest unemployment rate in the nation (over 12%, behind Michigan), and there are hundreds of people applying for every posting on Craigslist. I was doing my best to not be lost in the shuffle. But then there's self-doubt... am I putting in enough effort? Should I be working harder? Others who've endured periods of joblessness (to remain nameless) have insisted my two-resume-a-day pace was blistering. And hopefully, it's paid off. I have a second interview with a publishing company on Monday. It would be my fourth job in a year, and hopefully the last.
Another reason for my lack of blogging is that the blog needs a new focus. I don't want it to turn into Jessica's online diary. It evolved into that as I traveled through Asia, but I think it worked because I was on such an adventure. Now, I don't want to discount myself - my life is always a wild adventure - but I simply think my blog needs to have focus. First, it was traveling. Now it needs to be something else. I'll need to roll out a new look and new mission, as soon as I decide what that should be.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
No Place Like Home
I bolted from South Korea on Wednesday morning, leaving without notice, as advised by one of the current instructors at my assigned school. She said if I decided to leave, do it in the middle of the night. "The director is not a nice man."
I don't know what that means exactly. I just know I had a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. I also had an unshakable urge to return to Portland. To see familiar faces. To speak English. To start over - again. Yet again.
There have been so many fresh starts in the last three years: divorce. Start over. Quit TV news. Start over. Quit radio advertising sales. Start over. Quit Korea. Start over.
But there also have been some refreshing constants - mostly my friends and family. I am eternally surprised by and grateful for their generosity. For this "start over," Coleen has opened her second bedroom to me indefinitely. Mike is letting me borrow his truck. Elena and Ryan have offered their spare wing if needed. With friends so generous, I wonder why I left to begin with.
Still, no regrets. My Asian invasion - Japan, Guam, Bali and Korea - was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. I explored; I wrote; I photographed; I met new people; I learned. Now I know that I want to continue writing - not in the stilted TV news fashion that I had honed over seven years in the broadcast business, but in a way that fulfills my need to be expressive, bold and uncensored.
I will continue my Immersion blog. It will obviously need to be revised to match my environment and my situation in life. Stay tuned. There are always wild twists and turns in Jessica's wacky world - sometimes of my own making, sometimes not.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
No Love for the Sex Hotel
Monday, June 1, 2009
Days 5 & 6: Contemplating Home
Now it’s starting to atrophy again. I have so much time on my hands that I find myself doing very little. I could be doing more yoga. I could be reading more. Mostly, I sit here and stew about the life I left behind. I love Portland almost to an unnatural extent. I love my friends. I love Mike.
I already know that I will never have the affection for Korea that I have for the northwest. That’s not why I came here though. I didn’t expect to fall in love with the country and decide to stay forever. I expected to try a new career, discover a difficult culture, and escape bad relationship patterns – essentially challenge myself to grow professionally and personally.
Now I’m seriously pondering the prospect of running back home. I need someone to talk me off the ledge. What would I find? No apartment. No car. No job. No money. No certainty of relationship. I know that. I would still just be running in circles – spinning around the same problems with no resolution. The only reasonable solution is to stay in Korea – fight off the doubts. I’m not always a reasonable person. We’ll see how the next few days go.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Quarantine Day 4: The Age Gap
Richard is the bald white guy who says very little. He must have been a teacher somewhere before. He’s older – maybe 40 or so. He grabs a chair in the common area on the second floor and reads and reads and reads. He doesn’t complain. He doesn’t join the masses in our bitch sessions or our movie groups. He probably doesn’t feel like there are many people to relate to here.
They are the two extremes: there are the recent college grads who adamantly declare their maturity. Then there are the 30+ wanderers who are here because we know that we know nothing. The younger crowd outnumbers the older, but not by a lot. I’ve gotten this reaction a lot: wow, you’re 30? You don’t look like it. I can’t say I know what I should look like at 30.
It’s spiky blonde Andrew’s 30th birthday today. He’s been teaching in Korea for a while with his girlfriend. He didn’t want anyone to know about the big Three-Oh. Someone made him a birthday hat out of masks that read “I’m 30. Kill me.” I couldn’t tell if he was really amused or really wishing everyone would have ignored the day. Andrew has been responsible for calling the American Embassy and imploring them into action. Today a woman - with a suspiciously British accent - from our embassy called my room asking questions about our circumstances, asking if they can call my parents, saying they can do very little to help, saying they can’t even get inside.
So our circumstances: the medical staff wants us to stay in our rooms. We don’t want to. Most of us aren’t sick. Most of us aren’t going to get sick. This is overkill. Our rooms are hot. The internet in the rooms still isn’t working. The older are more willing to comply than the younger, and also more willing to take productive action. Andrew and his girlfriend posted signs around the building, advising quarantine-ees to have their family and friends call the Korean Embassy in Washington, D.C. I emailed the “On Your Side Investigators” at KATU. Investigator Thom Jensen to the rescue. Is the situation that bad? Probably not, but it doesn’t even appear that the public is aware of 50 Americans being quarantined. I think that’s news. I think. It’s hard to tell. When you’re quarantined, it’s easy to believe that you have the biggest problem in the world. I suppose I can understand why people are more concerned about North Korea’s nuclear bomb test. That story is consuming CNN International’s entire A-block. Maybe the media will be contacting me about something far more tragic in this part of the world one day soon? Let’s hope not. At least the embassy is now involved in our cause. The food has improved. A representative from our school was also on site today answering questions about our schedules and money and infectious disease response.
We were about to gather to watch a pirated copy of the new Star Trek movie. Then the doctor ordered us to go to our rooms. The doc is setting new rules and distributing some kind of medicine. I’m here. My roommate stayed put for about 50 seconds. I’m not sure where she is now.
Monday, May 25, 2009
North Korea Steals Our Thunder
A link here for the full story: http://www.nytimes.com/2009/05/26/world/asia/26nuke.html?_r=1&hp
Quarantine Day 3: Collision of Cultures
Their list of requests seemed too daunting for us: no smoking, no drinking, wear masks, no leaving, no room changes, don’t go outside.
The Korean authorities made rules. The American teachers broke them. The Koreans did what they do best. The Americans did what we do best. This swine-flu forced relationship wasn’t working out.
It’s not clear what straw broke the camel’s back. Was it the room-switching that made it hard to locate people for temperature checks? Was it the mattress-sledding down the staircase? Or was it the drunk guy who got locked out and crashed through the canvas rooftop of a shed?
Late on day three, the gauntlet was dropped. First, there was the room shuffle. Jessica Corey: move out of room 402 to room 412 with two other girls. Then, there was the spraying. Hazmat-suited decontaminators indiscriminately spray rooms with chemical sanitizer – even while people and their electronics are inside (my roommate’s brand new Mac Book is broken). Finally, another room shuffle and new rules. Jessica Corey: move out of 412 back to 402 with one other girl. Everyone: stay in your rooms at all times; sneaking out will add an extra seven days to the quarantine.
This was no longer about containment. This was about putting us in line. These medical authorities have the Korean government behind them. Our group has no one. Our school doesn’t appear to be a factor in any of these decisions any more. The Australian embassy wasn’t even aware its citizens are in quarantine. The American embassy told us to wait until after Memorial Day to log complaints. The Korean-speaking teachers fought a good fight, making a passionate, belligerent argument for rational thinking and compromise. But no one was listening. Not the doctor they argued with on the staircase for 30 minutes. Not the Minister of Health who arrived on site late in the day. Rigid, arbitrary rules for the sake of rules are now in place.
Perhaps, if these rules were set upon our arrival, we might not be ready to start an American-style revolution. I believe a Benjamin Franklin quote is even being tossed around here: "Those who would give up essential liberty to purchase a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety." We’re even starting to sing the civil rights anthem, We Shall Overcome. Yes, it is only those who have never faced real oppression in this world who are the first to cry oppression. There are only seven days that they want us to behave, after all. Seven days. My bet: we can’t do it. I can hear the smokers who have climbed out on the rooftop already. It’s only been three hours.
(Side note: the internet is down in our rooms, so I don’t have much access. I have to sneak out to a common area for WiFi. They say a technician is “working on it,” but the Korean-American teachers say don’t believe them. It is not at all unusual for Korean authorities to tell flat-out lies to shut you up. This sucks.)
Groundhog Day in Quarantine
Day 1 highlites: I was called out over the intercom because the workers couldn't find me for a morning temperature check. That's because I had swiped a solo room, and they didn't know it. I talked my way into keeping it, so I'm feeling better about the arrangements - at least for now. Because this quarantine could be going on indefinitey, we may get moved again to another facility. This one is used for EMT training. They'll need it back eventually.
We figured out how to hook up a laptop to the projector screen in the training rooms, so we had a zombie-movie double feature: 28 Days Later & Shaun of the Dead. I did some yoga and tried to sleep, although there was a jackhammer rattling for about eight hours straight today. But the real highlite was watching the NBA Western Conference Finals over Skype with Mike. He turned his camera around and did some commentary for me, while we watched together. Almost like old times. It would have been more fun if it the Blazers were playing, but I appreciated his effort and the quality time.
Get on Skype folks...it's easy and awesome!
I have some great pictures, but I still can't upload them. You can check them out on facebook instead.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Rock Solid Immune System Fights Off Swine Flu
Swine Flu Timeline & My Exposure:
Saturday, May 16, 7:16am: Arrived in South Korea
Sunday, May 17, 6:00pm: Dinner/drinks with 24 CDI trainees, including 4 with swine flu
Monday, May 18, 7:45pm: Dinner with 2 of the swine flu patients
Tuesday, May 19, 11:30am-3:30pm: Study session with first sick girl
Tuesday, May 19, 6:00pm: Counseled sick girl to go to hospital, after our final training session of the day
Wednesday, May 20, 8:10am: Bus ride next to girl involved in second case
Wednesday, May 20, 9:15pm: Study session with her
Thursday, May 21, 7:35am: Breakfast with her
Thursday, May 21: Second girl goes to the hospital
Tuesday-Thursday, 9am-7:30pm: Day-long classes and studying with third girl to go to the hospital
Friday, May 22, 5:35pm: Successful completion of training, sign contract
Friday, May 22, 8:10pm: Return to hotel instead of going to my school, for fear of getting sick
Saturday, May 23, 3:15am: Doctors arrive at hotel to take temperature of all trainees
Saturday, May 23, 5:00am: Interview over my contact with patients, quarantine notice
Saturday, May 23, 11:21am: 2-hour Skype conversation with Mike
Saturday, May 23, 1:30pm: Snuck out of hotel for Starbucks and other provisions
Saturday, May 23, 3:31pm: 90-minute Skype conversation with Mike
Saturday, May 23, 9:11pm: Arrive at government facility with 70 other trainees for 9-day quarantine
Saturday, May 24, 10:30pm: Notice that there are now six cases
Saturday, May 24, 11:10pm: Game of Jenga
The information-sharing has been atrocious. I didn't hear a word about how to handle the quarantine until 3:30pm on Saturday. By that time, I had already snuck out of the hotel to get myself food. Some people didn't eat until 6:00pm, when pizza was delivered. I was able to sneak out since I look quasi-Korean.
I feel fairly confident that I am not sick, despite having a soar throat. The holding facility is institutional but sufficient. However, I'm about at my wit's end with living with other people. I've been dwelling in close quarters for eight weeks now. I was placed with three other girls in the facility, but found an empty room and hijacked it for myself. There's a good chance I'll get moved back. Nonetheless, I had to take the risk.
As for teaching, I was supposed to lead my first class on Monday. No money is coming in, but at least no money is going out either. As with everything else in this process, I don't know what's next. The communication void is excruciating.
(I have some pictures but the internet connection is terrible, so it's not allowing me to upload)
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Quarantined!
A quick note before I get moved to a government health center to be quarantined. There was concern that a girl in our training group had swine flu. We were told there was one confirmed case, although I'm now hearing it's not swine flu. Whatever the case, some communicable disease is floating around, and I was in close contact - perhaps closer contact than any of the other trainees - with three of the four people who've gotten sick.Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Cramming Like Crazy
Well, I have all sorts of stories about interesting people and cool places, but I just don't have time to share. Don't be offended if I'm not returning emails or writing much in the next few days, as I prepare to pass my mock teaching evaluation on Friday.
Wish me luck!
Monday, May 18, 2009
Bali in a Nutshell
Having said that, Bali is a very special place indeed. And I truly hope to return again very soon.
I'm having trouble uploading pictures, so I'll post them separately at a later date because I need to study for my grammar/reading exam tomorrow.
